And the pendulum swings...

I’m going through a lot of changes right now.
A lot of gains and losses.
People coming in my life, and leaving it.
Some are easy come, easy go.
Others - hurt.

It's like a pendulum, my mom told me yesterday.
Swaying from one extreme to the other.
I’m just trying to find my center.
To find my true north.
I heard that line in a movie -- I'm sure you know it.

I'm finding out what I really want in life.
I know what I want.
It's figuring out how to live life until I find it...
Or it comes to me.

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I think the best thing to do is simply stop talking.
To not figure out life with words gushing out of my mouth like a spigot before my brain and heart have had a chance to catch up, and filter out.

I can be so black and white. Reign myself in so hard that I buck.

The point of this new chapter of my life is to spread my wings and explore all that life has for me.
Not to box myself in, or cage myself up...

There’s so much life to live.
I want to live a full life.
An honest life. A happy life.
And I don't want to hurt others as I live it.